The Great Revival

•March 10, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Hey there! As you can see, I’ve decided to revive my blog. Haha. I didn’t update it because school’s really heavy on me and it’s O levels this year! Which is very important so I’ve hardly had the time. Haha. So I’d only be able to update the blog on weekends.

Anyways, the school has some sort of Service Learning programme for us and I’m going to Thailand tomorrow! Gotta wake up early at 5 am to go to the airport. I’ll be away for at least a week (from March 11 to 17) So I won’t be able to access the internet then. I’ll miss everyone. haha.

So like, today alot of people ponned(skipped) school. Haha. Out of 42 people only 25 people in my class were in school today! HAHA. I was playing DotA this morning with Alvern, Siew Rong, Lucas, Mark and someone else. Then Yi Hern and Terence came to my house and we rockbanded a while before we went to vivo to buy last minute stuff for the trip. And He got a Kinder Suprise and I got a Kinder Bueno! I was really hungry and I chomped it quickly.. faster than my usual speed, which means alot. Kinder Bueno’s gonna be my favourite chocolate snack from now on! it’s chunky biscuit bits make it really good to chew on unlike normal chocolates with no “backbone“, and the filling inside is delicious. Just thinking about it again makes me want to eat another..

I’m gonna start tagging people’s blogs into my own, so if anyone wants me to tag their blogs, then comment here! I’ll tag you in.. about a weeks time? When I come back. Haha.

Alright, I’m gonna go and pack my luggage now. Haha. See you guys!

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Everytime I try to get over you, your beautiful smile makes me fall in love again..

Homework and Partays

•December 30, 2008 • Leave a Comment

School reopens this friday. And I just found out about the new timetable. It’s like shit! Our periods are now 25 minutes, which means we have more lessons everyday, and now we go home at 2:25 pm. What the heck is our principal doing, screwing around with the school? We now have 2 hours of E maths on wednesday. To make things worse, we have A maths before that. Wow. I’m gonna love wednesdays.

Me and Sean went to Liu’s house to do our homework after meeting up with YH to eat lunch. Gave them the stuff I bought for them in America(But YH left his in my bag cos he forgot again. -.-) We didn’t do much work. haha. Liu completed his an hour before us. He also taught me how to do some also. He’s damn smart. As expected of 3/4E. Haha. We went to Chinatown to eat Stingray and Satay after that. I think I’ve found a new love: STINGRAY. It’s gonna be one of my favourite food from now on. I don’t think I can ever survive if I migrate overseas. Haha.

Then tuesday I went to Yc’s house for some party. Sean, YH, Kath and Kenneth Lum were there and we played Rockband 1 & 2 for the rest of the day. Haha. (We also had alot of fun insulting Lum and his intelligence. But I think he’s okay about it in the end. haha :) )

Yc's party group photo

The whole gang. =D

Okay, now are you guys ready for something super disturbing?

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Liu lol

LOL.

That’s Liu. I’m serious. He looks daaaaaamn gay. I hope you guys aren’t scarred for life. :)

Nice guys.

•December 28, 2008 • 1 Comment

I was looking around the web when I found this:

♥ To every guy that said, “Sex can wait”
♥ To every guy that said, “You’re beautiful”
♥ To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her
♥ To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
♥ To every guy who has given her flowers just because that’s how he rolls
♥ To every guy that said he would die for her.
♥ To every guy that really would.
♥ To every guy that did what she wanted to die for
♥ To every guy that cried in front of her…
♥ To every guy that she cried in front of…
♥ To every guy that holds hands with her.
♥ To every guy that kisses her with meaning..
♥ To every guy that hugs her when she’s sad.
♥ To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
♥ To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
♥ To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
♥ To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to
see her for ten minutes
♥ To every guy that would give his seat up…
♥ To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
♥ To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
♥ To every guy who told his secrets to her.
♥ To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath.
♥ To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
♥ To every guy that believed in her dreams.
♥ To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them
♥ To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
♥ To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door
♥ To every guy that gave his heart.
♥ To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore…
And because of this, there are not many left out there…

This is so true. Nice guys really do come last. An example is myself  Sometimes I wonder how come nice guys are neglected. Sometimes I wonder why girls keep going for guys who are jerks and womanisers and chauvinist pigs over the caring, will-be-there-for-you-no-matter-what male friend who love them no matter what. Sometimes I wonder why there are so many girls that are hypocrites when they say they will only date “nice” guys when they end up going out with that showoffy-gangster who treats them like dirt. Sometimes I wonder how girls aren’t able to see guys for who they really are.

It’s the truth: Girls are, and will be attracted to Bad Boys. 

I’ve seen countless examples from not just the media, but from real life itself. Maybe even own experiences of this happening. And the worst news is that this probably will never change for a long time.

This got me thinking: If people actually saw the hearts of the people they meet instead of how they appear outside, would there be lesser breakups, lesser broken hearts, lesser depression, lesser suicides? Probably.

Unfortunately, not every male is bred a bad person. There are about at least 10% of most males that turn out to be the nice type. These sad, sad people are condemned to spend their days of youth longing for a partner to spend their miserable lives with, mostly failing.

Some of them are clever. They tried adapting, doing their best to fit the desires of the girl they love. Some have succeeded, some have failed. But of course, there is indefinitely no way to rid a leopard of it’s spots.

To every girl who has her sights/is dating a man who would give his world just to breathe the same air as you do, I salute you.

To every guy that had changed because you feel that your being too sensitive is something girls would never like, you have my sympathies.

And to the rest of the guys who would do the above and have been suffering in loneliness ever since their hearts were broken for the first time, may someone finally see what’s inside of you and love you for who you are.

Emotion.

•December 27, 2008 • Leave a Comment

Emotion.

We all have it. Whether happy or sad, whether angry or depressed. Is it possible to emotionless when you would be indifferent when emotionless? (Indifference is an emotion itself.) Let me take that challenge.

First off, the day was pretty swell. Woke up at 8 am in the morning, a little later than usual. Had a group project thing for literature so we were at my house shooting footage for the music video. Was pretty fun, despite some parts being a little retarded and maybe it being of fail, but it was fun nevertheless. I noticed my parents warmth and kindness to my friends in that they immediately went down to buy drinks for them, gave them a huge pack of chips, and opened a bowl of biscuits. Father even bought Macdonalds as lunch for them. I have never gotten this kind of hospitality from visiting anyone’s house before. Not even parties had the kind of snacks we were given. (Please don’t visit my house because of this sole reason, you most likely would come when my grandma’s over, which means you’ll suffer.)

After spending some time talking with her,I took a ride on my father’s car to church. This servoce was the last service of the year, so the drama team of YHope had a skit ready. The pastor was talking about  how we spent our time this year, and there were three ways to spend our time for next year:

  1. Waste time(Or rather, killing time)
  2. Use time(for our own benefit only, like play computer games)
  3. Invest time(Using the time for the benefit of not just us, but for other people too.)

I bet most of us have been doing no.1 and no.2 mostly. But has anyone used at least a considerable amount of time for the benefit of others? I hope some have.

After service, we went to Adidas to play table soccer(foosball). An understatement to describe my performance at the rear was terrible. It was more than just horrendous. As the hours whittled by, my confidence followed suit as well. Soon I was reduced to an emotionless chunk of flesh. I decided I had enough of the game, and I went to play Spades with Sean, Jon Liu and Aaron.

It seeed that my confidence in the table had also affected my stakes at cards. Jon Liu had unfortunately gotten me as a teammate and we were losing so hard it isn’t even funny. The game didn’t help my emotionless state either.

Might I have been feeling indifferent instead of emotionless? Hardly. I knew I felt something but there was almost no way to draw it out. This scary feeling of being emotionless makes me think as if I’m losing my emotions, one by one. What makes it scarier is that I can’t do anything to return those lost emotions either. I bet I could sit through a thousand versions of “The 10 Promises to my Dog” and not feel anything but a loss of emotion.

Will they return tomorrow? I guess. Right now, there are only two things that can turn me back to normal. The first would be time, the second would be it. So I guess you can feel emotionless without being indifferent, afterall.

Emotions are the very core of a human. So those who feel that they have too many emotions, or that they jump from emotion to emotion regularly should rejoice, for they probably would have no chance to be faced with being emotionless forever, a fate probably worse than death.

Merry Christmas!

•December 25, 2008 • Leave a Comment

Haha, it’s the 25th of december. Which means it’s Christmas day! It’s supposed to a merry day isn’t it? Haha not for me, because I’ll be studying for my A Maths retest. Which means I won’t be able to get into the mood.

My family had a turkey for dinner. With all sorts of good food.. I didn’t get to finish though. I wanted to invite people but both of my best friends here weren’t free. So I decided not to invite anyone.

I did write a card each to both of my parents though. I really hope they enjoyed it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5m_Lm9DY6N4

Did you hear that song? I hope you did. I was listening to it all night. haha. Right now I’m on a sad song marathon. haha. I just want to cry. Not because I have stress. but so that if I do, I know that I still have emotions and I’ll be sane. Weird but that’s just me.

If anyone has some good sad songs that they want to reccomend please do so. :) it’ll be much appreciated.

I bet everyone will be receiving tons of christmas gifts. haha. Well I’m different, cause I told my parents I didn’t want anything. They’ve given me all that I needed the past few years and I’ve never asked for anything from them. Thanks, Mom and Dad. :)

I wonder if everyone has something they really want for christmas. For me, this thing cannot be bought. It also cannot be traded and given at all. That’s because what I really, really want is _______.

Anyways, Merry Christmas everyone. :)

Christmas Eve!

•December 24, 2008 • Leave a Comment

Christmas eve, the day before Christmas. Everyone’s getting ready for the Christmas mood. And so have we..

This afternoon, we had a special service at 2 pm to 4 pm in the Rock Auditorium at Suntec.  It was just like a normal Church Service, except many of us invited people to come for the service and it had a christmas theme. Before Pastor Jeff took the mike, there was this skit made by the Drama team of Hope Church. In my opinion, it was okay, but the message was very strong. Here’s how it went:

A person dressed in white(Jesus) takes the stage, along with a girl(humans).  Jesus watches over her from a distance. A few people come onto the stage(Sin) and seemingly make friends with her, but they toss her about, make fun of her and throw stuff at her, making her depressed. Jesus is alarmed and tries to comfort her, but the girl pays no heed. A huge group of people(evil people) then tempt her to do bad things. She tries to commit suicide by taking a huge mouthful of pills one of them gives her. Another person gives her a penknife to slit her wrists, which she hesitantly does so. Suddenly, the girl remembers Jesus and sees the white robed person standing at the otehr side of the stage. She tries to get up and run to him for help but she is hindered and stopped by the group of evil people. They beat her up and keep pushing her back to where she was so she couldn’t reach Jesus. Jesus then pulls an invisible rope to try to get the girl to him, but the evil people knock her down till she’s unconscious on the floor. Jesus then rushes to the girl and opens his arms, protect the girl and blocking any of the evil people from touching her and harming her. The screen then shows scenes fgrom the movie “Passion of the Christ” where Jesus is carrying the corss to his cruxifiction. Then there’s a message on the screens, saying that Jesus will “never forsake you” and “will never leave you”. The emotions in the drama fit perfectly with the message, and I struggled to hold back a tear or two from the delightful presentation.

After service, our church friends were giving christmas cards to each other.. which reminded me that I had none to give.. because I didn’t write any. Crap. Anyway, I got three other cards. One from Desmond, One from Sean, and One from Clement. Haha. Then we camped at a spot next to a carousel kiddy ride to wait for the bus to come home. We would’ve sat on the kiddy ride cause we’re retards but the coin slot was jammed. oh well. :(

The Chalet was at Farmart which was near Chua Chu Kang MRT, which was quite far from where I stay(Harbourfront). I didn’t stay for quite long though, since I didn’t bring any extra clothing. No one told me about the activities again. zzz. I guess I’ll have to ask CLEARLY next time.

Evaxing day.

•December 24, 2008 • 1 Comment

Okay, this was what happened yesterday as promised:

The caregroup was going to meet at commonwealth MRT so that we can Evax the students at Queenstown Sec. I was walking away from my house to Harbourfront MRT station (Even waxed my hair until it seemed to look alot better than previous times) when it suddenly rained a huge downpour. (Which totally ruined my wax of all things) There wasn’t a warning. It started as a small drizzle suddenly and it got bigger and bigger over the next 5 seconds until it seemed like there was a torrential dispute between the gray clouds and the sky. I had to rush back home to get an umbrella which made myself later than I had already been. When I left my house for the second time.. it seemed that there was no rain anymore. The rain abruptly stopped just when I had my umbrella. I laughed.

After half an hour, I finally reached Commonwealth MRT. I expected to see alot of people but only Aaron and Chris were there. They were calling everyone who wasn’t at the station to come quickly, but it seemed that most of them either were busy, turned off their phone, or were sleeping. So we decided to amke our way to the school first.

We found Jon Liu at a bus stop further down the school and we decided to split ways. Me, Chris and someone whom I forgot his name (woops, haha) were camping at the entrance of the school, trying to Evax students who walked out. If you don’t know, Evax = Reaching out to the people to let them know about God. In this case we were trying to get people to come to the service we had tomorrow(which is today.) using cards that the church had given us. In the cards were details of the time and venues of the places we had to go for the event. We didn’t get much luck though.. but me and Desmond evaxed 2 groups of people together so I hope it wasn’t very wasted. I dunno about the rest though. We then went back to Jon Liu’s house to have our CG meeting.

CG meeting was okay. Desmond was explaining to us about a purpose in a life to worship God and we we can do to worship him. And how our sins have died along with Jesus who was cruxified. Jon Liu was going around being disgusting in the room lol. I can’t say if not you’ll be scarred for life. Haha. 

After CG ended, everyone had christmas cards to write. Some of them even wrote 50+ cards, which shocked me. They said they wrote throughout the night until the early morning. I took some cards from Desmond so that I could evax at Habourfront/Vivo since I didn’t have any cards to write. I took a bus to the MRT station back with Clement. He borrowed my PSP while on the bus ride and he was playing it very “vigorously”. lol. We split at the MRT station though.

When I was at Vivo, I made a deal with myself that I would try to evax people before the sun went down. The sun was already a little dark, but I made the deal nevertheless. I decided to roam around the area to look for a good spot where it wasn’t too noisy and there were teens walking by. I decided to camp at the chairs outside the movie theatre cos the other places seemed to be too noisy. It was hard approachin strangers. I think I feel for what those people who are on the streets asking you to do a survey or something.

The first people I approached waved me away and started walking off as fast as they could before I could say much. I decided to make thing quicker for them by saying that I only needed a minute of their time. I then approached this orange shirted guy..

“Hey, can I have a minute of your time?”

“WHAT YOU WANT.”

Wow. That totally intimidated me. I forked out a question from my mouth, in which he just replied “No” And walked away.

Asshole.

That made me a little demoralised, but I didn’t want to quit. I started looking for easier people, people who seemed friendlier. I then spotted a duo of girls buyign something at the vendors right next to me. I approached them and did the similar routine. Though they declined, it seemed that as if they were more willing to stop by and listen to what I have to say. And the reason, as I have put together, was that they couldn’t go. They had to collect the item that they bought before they could. Which meant I could approach them without them walking away. I decided to use this to my advantage. Smart, smart me. (Not really. lol.)

The next person I approached was a guy. He looked pretty dishevelled and pathetic(in the sense of his clothing and facial features). He decided to listen to what I had to say, and I did what I could to tell him about it. even though I think I might’ve failed, I sensed a little sadness in his eyes. I found out that he was a school dropout after asking him a few questions. I had this sudden desire afterwards to tell him that Jesus loved him. That there is a God that cared for him. Maybe that could give him some light in his life. Hpwever, before I could go back, he seemed to have dissapeared. Damn.

With these experiences in mind, I decided to reformat my speech. I decided to tell them that Jesus loved them and hoped for them to come to the event. I had this huge desire to make their lives better, and to change their lives and help them in whatever way I could.

by the time I gave away all the cards, It was blue in the sky. Not very dark, so I guess I completed my deal. There were some people whom have been pretty memoriable both good and bad:

This group of guys who were obviously lying to me in almost everything. Their leader kept talking screwing with me and being sarcastic and stuff. I took it in my stride though. I gave them a card, but I think it was pretty wasted.

The last card, which I gave to another duo of girls who were from NUS. They weren’t christians yet, and it seemed as if they wanted to go. I hope they did.

 

After evaxing, for some reason, I called Sean. I asked him to pass the phone to desmond after telling him about the evax and I also told Desmond about it. Then he said “Thank God for you, Zach”. Which pretty much made my day. I don’t really get thanked for much things, so that was a really big thing for me. I guess I didn’t mind evaxing again if I could get that kind of appreciation. :)

And that’s about it. If you actually bothered reading. I can’t seem to keep things short so you’ll have to deal with it for a loooong time. haha.

Hello.

•December 22, 2008 • Leave a Comment

Yeah, this is the very first time I’m using a blog. Other people have been making blogs for some time so I’ve decided to make one myself. Pretty much this is my very first blog post as well, so I don’t really know what to write. Haiz..

I guess I’ll write a second entry later on tonight after I see what happens. :) (more like im lazy but heck.) Then maybe I’ll also talk abit about my trip to the US.

Guess I’ll sign off now. see ya tonite. :)

 

EDIT: Maybe tomorrow. Veh Tired.